People always tell me not to stress the little things. They say if it wont matter in ten years dont worry about it. They say kill myself because of the way I stress.
    I try so hard not to stress. I know it's not good. So I stress about not stressing. It is terrible. I think about all the things I have to do. All the things other people need me to do. The things that need to be done to live well and not be looked down upon. Then there are all the things I want to do, to better myself and/or the world around me.
    I get the feeling that if I don't do it who will or "if you want something done right, do it yourself". Those feelings consume me. It's not just the fact that so many people say it; it's more so that I've found that I can't rely on others. When I do rely on others I end up disappointed: either it doen't happen, it doesn't come out correctly, or I have to "help it along" so much it would have been easier to do it myself. I hate that I feel this way but it's too true.
    As I said before I always have a really long list of things I need, want, and should get done. Form what I hear I need to compartmentalize. I need to focus on the things that have to be done soonest and stick with it till it's done. That is what I have a problem with. I can't stick to doing one thing at a time. I am too easily distracted for that. I start something, move on to something else and return to the first thing eventually. I guess I get bored.
    I really want help with this. If anyone has a suggestion it would be greatly appreciated.

                                                I really just don't know.

    I am fairly new on here and I found this the same way most of the people I've seen on here have, Fast Web. I am working on my anwsers fo the Scholarship Survey but it is fairly difficult since the questions are so broad. I feel like I am giving a wrong anwser, or it isnt good enough. Especially since I have no idea about the subject matter other people have used. It is quite scary.

    Also today I added quotes which was fun but finding quotes by autor was really difficult since the authors names weren't in any order. They are just grouped by first letter. I was wondering if anyone else felt that way too? My mother tells me that I am strange because I have some OCD type tendencys. I wonder if this is one of those times.

     I hope to write more soon but I best be off.